I want solutions, not answers.

you look through your old photos
to recollect
what your smile looked like.
my nails are long enough
to interfere with my typing,
but why cant I scratch
that smile from my memory?

yesterday someone told me
that I worry too much.
at my age
his only thought was
to get his next joint.
how do I tell him
that it is my curse
to think too much?

I went partying
last night.
I will wash off
the smell of smoke
from my hair,
but how do I clear
the haze in my mind?