Thinking Aloud

Sometimes, we wonder about all the questions in life. At other times, we wonder, if we are asking the right questions at all. When did we start having so many different things to worry about, that even thoughts needed to be prioritised? Is it true that we have too many choices in life? Would things be different if every decision was made for us, and we had no say? Wouldnt we then wonder about the 'what-if'? Someone mentioned, that we always want, what we cant have. Is it therefore human nature to pursue the forbidden fruit? Isnt that how it all started? Can we therefore blame it on Adam, and be at peace with running and searching for the greener grass, even when we are standing on the greenest lawn ever? Did we stop getting fulfilment in relationships and family, and start looking for it in our careers? Maybe that is why we need to distract ourselves by looking for happiness elsewhere. Maybe that is why we are all running in the rat race, chasing the perfect job in the perfect company in the perfect city. Chasing a dream, which is perfect, simply because it is a dream. And perhaps once we achieve it, the perfection will be lost. And it wont be as precious anymore. Strange, isnt it? Do we really find more thrill in the chase than the kill? Whether it is running after the perfect dream, the perfect job, the perfect guy or the perfect girl... the strategising and the game-planning sometimes gives more of a high than the actual achievement. Maybe because the moment of glory is after all just a moment. And a moment is never sufficient for us. Us, who always want more. More love, more power, more money. Speaking of money, someone told me I am looking for an excuse to spend money. Knowing that I cant eat or wear money, I figured spending was what it was meant for, in the first place. At the same time, if tomorrow, I need to let go of my spending habits, I will. Like all other things in life. I'm trying to teach myself, very slowly indeed, to not like anyone or anything be the central pillar in life. If tomorrow, you need to let something go, you should still be able to survive. For instance, if tomorrow I need to stop blogging, I will. At times, I wish I could turn back time to the days where my friends didnt read my blog. But that is a fleeting moment. It passes. Because thanks to that, I dont live in two different worlds, being too different persons. Somewhere, in everyone's lives, the fantasy and reality elements should converge, and not diverge. I think if you live in a make-believe world all the time, you are in trouble. If you start building a make-believe world about your past, you are in deeper trouble. If all the people who think you are the greatest thing ever, belong to this fantasy world of yours, I think you need serious help. Hmm. I guess a lot of questions will always remain unanswered. I am just happy I sometimes ask them.